One year ago today.....

 Today is a good day!!

As I watch my kids all sit together playing and laughing together I am so greatful to have them all here with me alive, safe, healthy and happy. For some parents seeing there kids play is just part of their normal day to day life but for me this is a miracle, this is a blessing. This is all I need to be happy.

One year ago today was a very scary day. A day that my world almost crashed to the ground. A day that I will never forget. One year ago today I thought I was going to loose my sweet angel Chloe. It was the scariest day of my life and it is a miracle that she is with us today.

After spending most of the middle of the night in the E.R Chloe was admitted into the PICU at the St. Alexius Medial Center. Chloe was in respiratory distress from aspirating her own vomit while wearing her CPAP mask . A little while after Chloe was admitted the nurse was in asking us about Chloe's history and in a matter of a second Chloe had gone into respiratory failure. The nurse called a code blue and in a moment there were at least a dozen doctors and nurses in the room working on reviving Chloe. Her saturation's and heart rate quickly went down to almost nothing, I remember seeing her heart rate go down as low as 4. It was so surreal. They intubated  her and eventually got her stable with the help of a breathing machine.

It was terrible as I watch all of this, of course only the worst going through my head. Her body just went lifeless and there was nothing I could do. It was the worst moment of my life but once I knew she was going to be ok that was was turned into the best moment I have ever had. Man there is no words that can explain either of those moments.

After a few horrible days Chloe started to fight the machines which was a good sign. It meant that she might be ready to breath on her own so they slowly took her off of the respirator and she did great. After she got over some other infections and was completely stable we were able to take her home on Valentine's Day.

Chloe is a fighter. She is such a  strong and courageous little girl that does not give up. I am so proud of how far she has come and how strong she has gotten since then. I am just love her so much !!!!

She is my Angel!